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paul, we are awful to each other. we make each other feel that we're superior to them. we break up in front of other people. we can't commit solely to each other. we make each other cry because it reinforces the fact that we aresuperior because we have so much control. (and is all of this in vain? it can't be real power if we both possess it)

and, why?

is it because we are just two insecure beings, convinced that we pale in comparison to the rest of the world.

or because we don't understand the pain and suffering of others although we recognize it in ourselves.

or because when we feel the pain, it's not so bad, it makes us feel special and gives us something really deep to ponder.

or because we really love each other yet at the same time don't want to give the other one all the power.

i do love you (sometimes).

yet, i fear i will always be cruel.