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i'm pretty generic. i don't mean that in the bitter way the punk kids laugh at jocks. i just mean: i could probably do just fine with whomever. and i have. i've been to a lot of different places in my city: different houses, different movies, different parties, different shows. i get bored and i start wanting something else so i move. it's simple, i guess. but tiring. it seems people build situations for themselves like houses. communities form around likeness and tumble down with differences. and i've been looking at myself and thinking that i don't look hip and i don't look punk. i look like i've looked forever. it seems the only constant wherever i find myself is myself. and people say this constant gets restless and gets angry and finally gets out. but despite all the jokes: people i met a year ago have become and remained my good friends. and in the same way that little girls want to marry their middle school crushes; i hope i still know my good friends in twenty years. in forty years. in sixty years. it bothers me that next year we won't all be here. but maybe this is a community based on love and not a community based on likeness so maybe it won't change much.