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'and you believe baudrilliard?' they tried to tell me that i was nuts, that lux didn't really believe it and therefore it wasn't true. he only uses it for debate, annie, it's not real. 'you are going to be some psychotic spiritual girl.'

and i don't think they are right. i think he understands it is real. and so very, very little else is these days. yes, sure this screen is real, and i am really here. but these institutions we have created, what do they mean?

and god? the unreal of the ages. and they tell me i lack faith because i don't believe in god. but i do understand faith. faith in people, not faith in the impossible.

and yet somehow when i think about how the universe began, i realize how little it matters. accept the mystery, don't make up stories and move on. they tell me the earth is rotating, and revolving, and our galaxy travels through the universe. but here i am stagnant. and still believe that all that matters is how we rotate, revolve and travel through the world.