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in second grade my friend came up with an elaborate scheme of secret messages. i was supposed to deliver to the boy she had a crush on. i saved her a lot of time and went up to him on the playground and said 'katie likes you more than anyone else, ben'. i had a crush on him too. it was really just a way to speak to him, but he ran away. completely disgusted. i told her that i told him because i couldn't handle the secret anymore. i could've just said hello.

now i'm sixteen and my friend adores this boy. and we sort of joined together in her following of him, but i didn't like him. he found out and ran away. completly creeped out by her. and then on friday we're at a show and he puts his arms around me. and i more than don't mind, i encourage it. and i'm afraid to say 'ben likes me more than you, katie.' i have no excuse, i was just looking for something fun. i could've just picked anyone else.

so what did i owe these girls? i can be loyal. i never abandon paul even though he's said a million times over that he doesn't want to talk to me anymore. that he wasn't to run away. completey past me. because he always go back on that. and i never abandon alex even though i feel like a part time friend. that he'd rather be with his girlfriend. completely away from me. because there's something about him that makes him an amazing friend.

and what's the difference between them? interest, i suppose. irreplaceable qualities.

loyalty is a virtue because we don't just give it to everyone.